I am not someone who holds on to “stuff.” In fact I am often the one going around telling people that memories can be kept in your head and heart-they don’t need to take up space in your closet.
But I have a secret. At 30, I found myself ending a long-term relationship with 3 kids under 7. I was still young but hadn’t dated in 10 years. As I began to navigate this new world I bought shoes. Not practical mom shoes but expensive stilettos. I couldn’t afford them let alone walk in them but I felt I had something to prove. To who? I’m still not sure. I had black ones with gold heels, silver sandals that had sexy little straps and a pair of beautiful beige open toe’s. Each with a 5 inch heel. For those of you that wear heels maybe this is walk in the park. For someone that lives in police boots or Uggs it took everything in me to just stay upright. I would be at the bar literally holding onto the bar. Thank god I met my husband 10 months later (not wearing the shoes) and was able to put the heels into hiding.
This week while we were doing our fall clean I finally tackled the shoes I have been holding onto. As someone who de-clutters on a regular basis I was confused why the three boxes of shoes on the top shelf of my closest had made the cut of things to keep. For 10 years! I brought them down, held them and even tried them on. And then I said goodbye. Not just to three pair of shoes but to a pretty shitty time in my life. I haven’t been in that place for a very long time. The shoes reminded me of how far I have come. I was ready to let go. I packed them up and placed them in the donate bin. My hope is the shoes land on the feet of someone who needs a pick me up. Without a doubt they are fun. If not, I just hope they end up with someone who can walk in a heel. Sometimes we need to look at the stuff we don’t want to let go of and ask ourself why? The answer may surprise you.