We all have those days, weeks, months when nothing seems to be coming together. A few weeks ago, despite my best efforts to do and be more, the list of tasks just kept growing and with each item added my motivation to check anything off waned. I found myself stuck in a funk.
I used to push harder and power through but the effort always left me exhausted and resentful. Why do I have to work so much? Four kids-what were we thinking (though we LOVE them all)? Why did I sign them up for one more G-Damn sport and why the fuck do they eat so much-I just did groceries (and don’t even get me started on the laundry). This coping strategy often left the fridge full and the laundry done (not to mention the floors mopped and the house tidy) but it drained me of the one thing I cherish: my energy.
Last year on my Yoga Teacher Training in Costa Rica, the staff at the resort gave us one warning about the beautiful Pacific. If you feel it begin to pull you-swim with the flow not against it. Fighting the current is hopeless. It made me wonder-what if instead of fighting the universe and the flow and rhythm of life we just embraced it and moved with it? And so last week we ate more take out, wore clothes that may have been picked up off the floor and slowly prepared for a camping trip to Killbear Provincial Park. When we left the house the floors were a mess, the laundry was still sitting in baskets and the fridge was completely bare. For three glorious days we had nothing to do but hike, connect with each other and nature and figure out what was left in the coolers to eat. I came home refreshed and with my energy replenished. And so last week I cleaned and purged the house, my office, my fridge. And brought back into those spaces the things I love.
When you have a life that is filled with kids and jobs and commitments, it isn’t easy to just say no and do less. Sometimes you have to embrace the chaos in order to find the calm.